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today is a bad day, i feel so desperate, i can feel your uncomfortable, i can see your pain, and i feel very sorry. today i must make a roadmap but i can't, i can't even think about anything, my mind just blank, i can't start to thinking, i need to talk to somebody butt i even can't find someone that i can talk to. I found at the internet that i can talk to 500-454 for 'curhat', i call it but i can't talk because it is a man voice, oh i feel very sad.

Last week i am ok, i am full of energy but now i dont have energy, i always think about anything, about my life, my co-worker, my subordinate. I feel that my burden is too many. I make my life so miserable, I start my life bad, but very weird i also feel that sometimes i can be very good. My life is full of happiness.

I dont know until when i have to face this kind of feeling. I feel very terrible. I can change my mood in second. I am to weak or maybe because i am too sensitive. sometimes being sensitive is good but sometimes its make you suffer, to may sadness in this world.